Rough Draft Poem - “The Chase”

Written by jack on June 27th, 2009

The swelter of warm night after warm night
broke this morning with a roar of a storm,
and the sticky aftermath gave way to a cool
afternoon with bluster to spare.

I went out walking in the evening, after
the sun had dipped behind roof peaks,
the wind moving through the lawn breaks
and tousling the treetops above. Gardens
bursting out of their confines and spilling
to the curb.

Out on the sidewalk a girl pedaled her bike
up and down the block, shadowing a rabbit
as it took in its dinner from this or that lawn.
The rabbit would stop, nibble some clover,
the girl would stop, and the rabbit
would tear back down the street
to another patch of food.

Her conscious mind turned off she gave chase,
as if chasing down the mystery of nature,

sure in her childish way
that she would find the answer,
and that
would be that.

I’ve found out by now,
in really just a few years on Earth,
that the mystery is not to be solved.

But as I passed her and reached the corner
I watched the trees dance above me,
dance and dance in the blowing wind,
and looking down the street I watched those trees dance too,
and I kept walking, taking up the chase again anyway.

Missing Books APB

Written by jack on June 27th, 2009

This is an APB out to all readers and friends…I’m going through my bookshelf today, sending some things to Half Price Books, and I’m just noticing that a number of my favorites, which have been handed out to friends along the way, are missing from my shelves. So, if you read this blog, and I let you borrow one of these books, would you think about returning it? You don’t have to. But think about it. Kthx.

Dave Eggers - You Shall Know Our Velocity and Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Jonathan Safran Foer - Everything Is Illuminated
Tom Robbins - Even Cowgirls Get the Blues and Jitterbug Perfume

Or…maybe other books I haven’t noticed?

John Updike, “Baseball”

Written by jack on June 23rd, 2009

It looks easy from a distance,
easy and lazy, even,
until you stand up to the plate
and see the fastball sailing inside,
an inch from your chin,
or circle in the outfield
straining to get a bead
on a small black dot
a city block or more high,
a dark star that could fall
on your head like a leaden meteor.

The grass, the dirt, the deadly hops
between your feet and overeager glove:
football can be learned,
and basketball finessed, but
there is no hiding from baseball
the fact that some are chosen
and some are not—those whose mitts
feel too left-handed,
who are scared at third base
of the pulled line drive,
and at first base are scared
of the shortstop’s wild throw
that stretches you out like a gutted deer.

There is nowhere to hide when the ball’s
spotlight swivels your way,
and the chatter around you falls still,
and the mothers on the sidelines,
your own among them, hold their breaths,
and you whiff on a terrible pitch
or in the infield achieve
something with the ball so
ridiculous you blush for years.
It’s easy to do. Baseball was
invented in America, where beneath
the good cheer and sly jazz the chance
of failure is everybody’s right,
beginning with baseball.

* * *

A beautiful and true poem.

Ko Un, “The Little Spring”

Written by jack on June 19th, 2009

Without its little spring,
what would make Yongtun Village a village?
Endlessly, snowflakes fall
into the spring’s dark waters
and dissolve.
What still still stillness,
as Yang-sul’s wife,
covered in snow, goes out to draw water,
puts down her tiny little water jar
and picks up the gourd dipper but forgets to draw water,
watching snowflakes die:
that still still stillness.

James Whitcomb Riley, “A Barefoot Boy”

Written by jack on June 15th, 2009

A barefoot boy! I mark him at his play –
  For May is here once more, and so is he, –
  His dusty trousers, rolled half to the knee,
And his bare ankles grimy, too, as they:
Cross-hatchings of the nettle, in array
  Of feverish stripes, hint vividly to me
  Of woody pathways winding endlessly
Along the creek, where even yesterday
He plunged his shrinking body — gasped and shook –
  Yet called the water “warm,” with never lack
Of joy. And so, half enviously I look
  Upon this graceless barefoot and his track, –
  His toe stubbed — ay, his big toe-nail knocked back
Like unto the clasp of an old pocketbook.

Recollections

Written by jack on June 9th, 2009

I’ve been trying this week to conjure up some recollections of my Granddad, who passed away on Saturday. It’s hard, however, to work up so many old memories in such a short time, and my mind seems to keep latching on to just a few things. The moment I try to take one memory and have it lead me to another the bubble of concentration seems to burst and I’m left with just the original feeling. But these few feelings I have right now are so full and so vivid in my mind they seem to paint him so perfectly just on their own. Of course this picture I’ve made of him is from just my perspective - my mom (his daughter), my sister, my dad, my aunts and uncles and cousins, my Grandma most of all, and everyone who loved him will each have their own portrait to conjure up as well, and I look forward to the stories and other recollections we’ll all share when we meet to celebrate his life in a couple days.

The first thing I think of is the pipe smoke, and its smell. All through my younger years, he smoked a pipe every night. He would sit in that old chair in the den, in that house in Bloomington IL, bang out the ashes of last night’s smoke, fill the pipe with tobacco, light it up, and sit back. Just pure tranquility. And the den, the house would fill with that smell, that sweet and biting pipe tobacco smell. I’ve always loved that smell. If you were lucky, I mean really lucky, you got to hold the match and help him light it. Sometimes we would take the whole show outside to the porch and feel the Illinois heat, listen to the crickets and the cicadas and all the other evening critters, and let the scent waft into the neighborhood of E. Grove St.

He ate vanilla ice cream for dessert at every lunch. Not dinner. Lunch.

When he could still drive, back in Illinois, his little green station wagon had this bumper sticker on the back: “Member of the Vast Right-Wing Conspiracy.” Kind of joking…kind of serious. Loved it.

It seemed when we (me, sister, cousins) were really little he always took us two places: the library and the zoo. He volunteered at the library, and I think he liked to show off his grandkids to all of his friends. I don’t know if he took us to the zoo or if we dragged him along, but we went alot. It wasn’t much of a zoo, but it was fun, perfectly sized for one granddad and some anxious kids. And (I think) we’d walk through the nearby park afterwards.

He loved trains, and science, and all things mechanical and electrical. He did work at GE for all those years after all. I’m sure his knowledge of trains and train engines could beat out just about anyone else’s. And it wasn’t just the mechanics - he just loved to watch them roll by. To watch him you’d think nothing was finer in this world than watching a train go by. Even later on…or more recently I should say, when some of his mental faculties were stolen away from him, he still devoured any and all books given to him that had to do with trains, or science. Or mysteries, for that matter. The last time I saw him - haven’t thought of it that way yet - he had just gotten a book of photographs from the Hubble telescope. I was very jealous. And he lit up when I explained the work I do now with solar energy, explained how a PV module works, how we convert the DC to AC…I think he was impressed I knew what I was talking about.

One more thing is, whenever I saw him, he would greet me with a handshake and a “Jackson.” It was the sort of greeting where you could tell he was being funny but also completely serious. I think that says a lot. And no one called me Jackson back then. For a long time I thought it was a silly name - I’ve since embraced it - but the way he said it, it made me feel proud.

Well, that’s just a little bit about Ken Burrell, a few things to remember him by.

Ted Hughes, “Wind”

Written by jack on May 27th, 2009

This house has been far out at sea all night,
The woods crashing through darkness, the booming hills,
Winds stampeding the fields under the window
Floundering black astride and blinding wet

Till day rose; then under an orange sky
The hills had new places, and wind wielded
Blade-light, luminous black and emerald,
Flexing like the lens of a mad eye.

At noon I scaled along the house-side as far as
The coal-house door. Once I looked up –
Through the brunt wind that dented the balls of my eyes
The tent of the hills drummed and strained its guyrope,

The fields quivering, the skyline a grimace,
At any second to bang and vanish with a flap;
The wind flung a magpie away and a black-
Back gull bent like an iron bar slowly. The house

Rang like some fine green goblet in the note
That any second would shatter it. Now deep
In chairs, in front of the great fire, we grip
Our hearts and cannot entertain book, thought,

Or each other. We watch the fire blazing,
And feel the roots of the house move, but sit on,
Seeing the window tremble to come in,
Hearing the stones cry out under the horizons.

A.E. Housman, Nos. X and XI from “More Poems”

Written by jack on May 21st, 2009

X

The weeping Pleiads wester,
  And the moon is under seas;
From bourn to bourn of midnight
  Far sighs the rainy breeze:

It sighs from a lost country
  To a land I have not known;
The weeping Pleiads wester,
  And I lie down alone.

XI

The rainy Pleiads wester,
  Orion plunges prone;
The stroke of midnight ceases,
  And I lie down alone.

The rainy Pleiads wester
  And seek beyond the sea
The head that I shall dream of,
  And ’twill not dream of me.

* * *

Ah, Mr. Housman, so formal, so sorrowful, so beautiful. Iambic trimeter, with every other line starting with the first having an added half-beat at the end. Leaves you hanging on, leaves you unfulfilled and wanting resolution. This is how meter really works for you if you let it.

Maybe the funniest thing on TV ever.

Written by jack on May 19th, 2009

I’m not usually up late enough for Craig Ferguson’s show but my god I’m glad I was up for it last night. I can hardly watch it it cracks me up so bad.

Defrauded!

Written by jack on May 19th, 2009

You don’t think it’ll happen to you until it happens to you - somehow some jerkass in Indiana used my credit card today to buy $450 worth of crap at a Wal-Mart. First: I’m not really sure how that works, since my credit card was in my wallet all day long and I’m pretty sure Wal-Mart doesn’t have an online store. That would be too funny. Second: people never really say nice things about their bank, especially these days, so here’s a shout-out to Wells Fargo fraud protection for getting to the bottom of it before I even knew it had happened. Third: I don’t know which disgusts me more, the crime perpetrated or the fact that it happened at Wal-Mart. Uh, gross. Fourth: c’mon guy, Wal-Mart? Really? I mean, you have someone’s credit card info - and you’re going to go to Wal-Mart? If it were me - not that I’d do something like that obviously, but if I were so inclined - I’d go buy, I dunno, a car or something. Some bling. A first-class airline ticket to Paris. A dinner at the most expensive restaurant I could find (not holding out for much in Indiana though). Something awesome. Am I right?

The funny thing is the whole thing was cleared up in a matter of minutes. The girl was pretty plain about it: since you used your card in Minnesota yesterday, and used it there today, and you always use it there, you probably weren’t in Indiana. Solved. As easy as it was for someone to buy stuff with my credit card number, it was even easier to fix. What a weird world it is.

EDIT: Wal-Mart does have an online store. Just in case you’re too lazy to actually go to Wal-Mart. Oh my. :lol: